It's been so long since I blogged that it was only when I lay in bed last night - watching birth videos (an example of the nostalgic things one does the night before your child's birthday) - that my mind wandered to the fact that I had not given this birthday blog any thought. Whether it's that I've finally developed some chill, or that I am too far gone to be bothered, is immaterial at this point; I was pleased to find it was pretty much the same when Zac and Sam each turned four too. So here it is, a birthday post for Bayley:
My Bayley Cate... (Let me start by saying: I never thought I would call you by your full name as much as I do. It's a beautiful name, but that's not why it's in frequent use. I have never related to Dave Seville from Alvin and the Chipmunks more!)
I actually can't believe that you are four. Where has the time gone? On the one hand, your birth is etched in my mind so clearly it's like it happened yesterday. On the other, you have become so grown up, independent, articulate, and fearless - I sometimes forget you are (were) just a baby.
From the very beginning, life with you has been a wild ride - and nothing has changed! I marvel in awe, wonder, and terror at your benevolence, loveliness, quick wit, and sass. You are a thrill of adrenalin that rushes through my veins making me feel both frantic and completely alive. Your strong will, high drama, rule-breaking and risk-taking sends me into free fall - and then, somehow, you make me fly. What isn't there to love about you?
This coming of age is somewhat bittersweet. I'm saying goodbye to a decade consumed with babies. I will miss having you fit into my arms, breathing in that baby scent, and being your primary source of comfort. But I'm excited by this new chapter: to see us grow up together, carve out our own space in our family, and bond over (probably, not so) girly pastimes - and food, of course!
Happy birthday, my darling girl. I hope your day lives up to all you've dreamed of, and that the year ahead brings you a taste of all the rainbows, unicorns, and magic that you bring to the world. You are beautiful, strong, smart, and kind. My warrior-princess: Bayey the Brave.
All my love, Mommy x
